a letter for my dearest friend "Ayu Diah Gunardi"

hay,,i miss you, as always...
just yesterday i said that i was really lucky having a friend like you
and then you say, that's not such a good luck, it's called destiny.
i just laughed.

every single word you say, the way we commenting each other, our moment, our old days...
yup our story.. "our yesterday".. and i hate the fact that time passed by so fast, and we haven't made enough memory to be remembered...

i don't know exactly what to say, you already know everything.... i used to hate my self because of  my own mistake, a stupid one, left you behind, without realize anything and do you know, like a fool i cried badly when i realize there's a big distance between us, much than before.

i remember, when i asked you to close your eyes, you just did, so eventually you fell into the gutter, i'm sorry about that..
i remember when we walk at the deep night, it was dark and full with silence, there's only you and me, and then we run, right after i ask "do you hear that noise?", and now i think, that was funny...
i remember when we talk to each other, you tell what you want, talk about my dream, make some nice plan for our future, that kind of childish thing, but that was my favorit yesterday... yup, being with you will always be the greatest moment i have..

after i think and remember about yesterday, i realize that we didn't have  much  to tell,  many stories to be written, or  moment to be remembered, so... will you stay? write some chapter for the next book, book about our story, our friendship. tomorrow and the day after.....

hello, my dearest friend,you... you just turned 21th ...


Happy birthday, Ayu Diah Gunardi, whatever the future will bring, just let it be and sorry I can't be there, to say  "happy birthday" and then hold, and hug you like the others do...
but, just so you know I will always pray for may ALLAH SWT will always keep you with blessing, a healthy live, and happiness, and later, wherever you'll go, bring this story with you, so you can open it or close it whenever you want ...